24-12-10 christmas eve

Christmas eve is a day where we should happily eating on a dinner table and sing along to celebrate the festival commemorating the birth of Jesus of Nazareth. It is a culturally significant celebration for most of the Western world and is widely observed as a full or partial holiday in anticipation of Christmas.(taken form wikipedia) but for me, is something in my heart, but nothing in my realistic life. i wake up early in the morning, together with my mom, we send tang yuan for my little brother.cause he dodnt come back for winter solstice. After we bring the thing to him, mom went to meet up with a professor. We chit chat about some pre- school thing and after that, we went to TESCO. This is my first time to shop in TEsco.. haha. not bad. A very good experience.. i bought 1 skirt and 2 shirt.. it only cost 20++. CHeap. then back to YEE po house, eat.. sister bring me to boston, a very famous shop to eat their food... not bad.. esp the fried sotong and lala.. love it... THen, after we went back home at 11.i went out to yam cha v eason, hoong sheng , xin ying, eileen and yuh lit. it is also a small celebration for eileen for her birthday.. COol and warm.. after that,, sleep .... ( today did a small quarrel with ken)

christmas celebration

He did it to my house and we went to sunway for a walk n shopping... His brother wanna get some new year clothes... Thought is a simple and casual christmas celebration( cause we had our lunch in T-bowl) but, it really mean to me a lot. In T-bowl, he ordered fooods and beverage for both of us and we enjoyed eating those shit on the toilet bowl.wat a smell... hahaha... After shitting, we went for shopping. Is a pleasure and a torture to shop v him n his brother.(haha.. cause they will survey and hold for the first time and come back again after they finish walking) but, is a good exercise though... Then baby make a vow infront of the shit that he won disappointed me.. is that shit? he always come out with these shit idea.. wahhaha.. but cute and special.. time passed... its time to send me home again for my friends bachelor nite. Baby trained me in the car cause i will be the MC tonite for the party.. is COol Yet frightening.. cause these uncles and aunties in Jenjarom is crazy yet threatening. Once u say something worng, they will bull u... yish~~ i mentioned the wrong surname, and they bulll me.. YISH YISH YISH.... finally it finish~ that for the day~ is a tiring day, but is a happy day~

we meet for the second time...

Thanks to Yee Fan make me canceled my class but end up waited him till 12 to get myself to Melacca. So angry... Meet him at MElacca sentral. He had a new hair cut. Make him look younger. He purposely come to fetch me to his new home. great~
reached his house. erm.. New house new smell. But, old furniture. haha... his parents is still the same them, his little brother is still the ah He, He is still my baby. So cute and adorable. we had lunch together with his mom oily but awesome dishes and coconut drinks. My first trial to have lunch with his whole family... COool... After filling our stomach, we fetch his bro to busstop and at the same time buy ticket for me to go home. it only have 3 times: 8:30, 12:30 and 8:30pm. Of course, i choose 12:30 lo... Then we wait until ah He2 bus depart, we started our journey to pahlawan. Baby wanna buy his dream lamp. i think is a bit small n not so dreamy... but he like it very much.. erm.. i respect his decision. As long as he like, n it didnt offense me, i should support him.. tat is wat i will do in the future. So, without hesitation, he bought the lamp. He told me is a gift from his colleague... how nice.. ooo
wat about me? wat is my gift? Act i have gone to Harvey Norman to look at the price of the fan. Gosh, so pricy. i couldn't afford to gift a 199 fan to him... Hai... thought of buying others things for him.. we walk walk and see see after we buy the lamp. i wanna buy something cheap but nice for my new year attire cause b4 this i have bought 2 blouse for 199 ad.. no doubt... i need to choose some lesss expensive stuff for myself..
he was so cute when he was there to see i come out from the fitting room. If is a nice skirt, he will nod his head. if is not a nice dress or shirt, he will smile and make his eyes big n look at me v his most innocent eyes.. wat a cute guy..
at last, i buy a shirt. i thought he will pay for me.. BUt no... i pay myself. i tell him how i feel.. maybe he feel guilty, he say he will pay me bak.. haha.. He is damn adorable... started to in love v him again..
Time flies, hungry again. needa go home.
Reached, his mom was so mad at us. Ask me y we are so late, where have we been, what the hell we come back so late? ad tell him we need to help them in moving some stuffs and soso ...
i am so guilty..
After dinner,i did help them out in moving their house.. fun.. but heavy...then time to sleep...
waiting him in his romantic room... sleepy.... nite~

reunion dinner

Had planned a reunion dinner for such a long time and at last.. we managed to took a nice n peaceful dinner at palate palatte restaurant. Is so nice and comfort v all my friends.. sharing their thought and fooling around...
Palate palatte restaurant is a creative restaurant. But, the food is aweful.. n so expensive.. but the potion is little.. i ordered a pasta carbonara.. damn it... it taste aweful... indeed, have a great time there...

is not a good way

Ah Bao..
U say talk nicely to them... how come it turned out to be that way de.... shit...
i dad wanna give me up ad..
he dunwan me ad...
so sad..
he so angry jus now n scolded me..
he say he wan me to become a teacher n that the final deal
he shouted at me .......
i didnt shout back..
but, i feel so sad..........
how come things become like tat?

i m mad of everything in my life...

When i woke up yesterday, i saw fb was full of Alvis Kong news. he is so loving but yet stupid..

22 Years Old Malaysian Alvis Kong Committing Suicide For The One He Love

22 Years Old Malaysian Alviss Kong Committing Suicide For The One He Love

Source from Chinapress.com and Joshuaongys.com

At around 9.50PM on Wednesday night, he posted a message on Facebook saying that ..

t0night 12.00 am. you wil knew whether its true or prank

Then later on at 11.00 PM, he posted another message on Facebook ..

Hope everyone will take care of their beloved one…Do not let them slip away from u before it’s too late !

15 minutes later, he posted another message ..

Count Down For 45 Mins…What should i do in this 45 mins ?

Alvis Kong & his baby

Alvis Kong officially announced and started his relationship with his girlfriend on the 26th of July 2010 and the whole relationship lasted only 4 months where it ended early this month. This is ONLY Alvis’s second relationship and he’s ONLY 22.
He got rejected 5 times by this girl before he finally manage to couple with her for 4 months.

Alvin Crying picture before he died

Alvis Kong wrote his last note before he died in Facebook – Link

Life is so short. he is only 22. However, i alute his courage to do this act. A 22 years old boy got the courage to jump from a 14 floor apartmeent. He dont care about the consequence that will happen and face all his problem himself. Bravo.

After praising him, i need to say that he is stupid. waht a stupid dump shit who is selfish and excessiive self centered. his behavior is over his limitation. He didnt care ahbout his parents who raise him up for 22 years. the money, the energy, the spirit, the love...... no brain.. dump shit...

The saying goes:You cannot always control what goes on outside. But you can always control what goes on inside.He can control the devil that push him to die. He can control everything.. but y?

i m jus a normal girl..
i m selfish? i think so.. i cruel.... always make my mom sad. always self centered..
but, i am sad... jus dreaming about having a bright future.. but, i cant make it
i cant do anyhtign but jus to stay at home and wait for the stupid posting.
why cant i join private UNi? y cant i join private instituition and center? y should i always ned to folow what i dun like.. the path have been walk by them... why should i follow their footstep?
why should i ............

life is torturing me...
i hate my lifestyle now..
no date, no friend, no nothing..
why i dont have the courage to jump down like aLVIS?
i hate myself..... jus hate....

小S语录。每天给我自己看N遍

当我告诉他们我要减肥，他们都说，你那么瘦了，减什么！

一直沉浸在这样的谎言当中，当然没有了减肥的动力，不骗人的只有相机和镜子！

难道等到所有人都跑来跟你说，亲爱的，你怎么变成这样。。。那时候再去减吗？？？

<减肥语录>

减肥关键就是饿，运动是最没用的，最多是辅助。但你想靠运动瘦下来，不可能。

我跟你说，这是个残酷的社会。你别以为有真本事怎麼著，外表更重要。

女生一定要爱自己。你就记住：胖子没前(钱)途！你再有本事心地再好，也是只是个好胖子。

不管年纪，漂亮是必须的。减肥也没有藉口，你能把自己吃肥就一定能瘦下来。

30多岁的女性应该比20岁女生更有智慧，你应该知道这个社会对女性多挑剔。

必须瘦，不要想太多。

胖子没资格吃！一定要瘦了再说。

你们给我挺住，都别吃。都那麼肥了怎麼还有脸吃！

要瘦一定要付出代价的。怕吃苦的太娇气的就不要开始了。

没有好方法，就是忍。不要问我怎麼忍，就是不要去吃

没人能帮你，只能靠自己。

如果你不想我喊你胖子就从现在开始别吃了。

喝水吧就，饿就去睡觉。

如果你和我说你不能忍饿问我怎麼办，我只能说那你别减了。

大S是一天一香蕉吃3个星期。

所以你看，就是要忍。

为什麼别人能你就不可以？

你们要自己加油。要证明给自己和一些傻X看。

就算以前是胖子也会有瘦下来变漂亮的一天。

看美女一个个活得更滋润，为啥？

美女漂亮自然一呼百余辆车接送，任她挑选。

你呐？拖著臃肿的身躯和妄图隐藏肥胖的厚厚大衣挤公交车？

还是自己在大冷天只能冒著漂移的危险慢慢开车迟到？

<恐怖的减肥语录>

1。其他女人都能瘦下来你为啥不行！你是白痴吗？你天生就该当肥猪吗？

2。女人不对自己狠心,男人就会对女人狠心

3。你难道就喜欢别人对你不堪入目的身材指指点点？

就喜欢看着自己喜欢的男生被自己厌恶的女生抢走？

就喜欢每天对着肥大的裤子 把自己粗壮的腿塞进去？

就喜欢夏天穿个包得死紧的衣服大汗淋漓走在烈日底下？

就喜欢身边的脸很丑但很瘦的女人穿着你穿不进的美衣？

体重3位数的女人没有未来！ 只有对自己狠一点！

你TMD怎么就这么喜欢吃东西 你和肉亲啊还是怎么着

4。不瘦下来不准买新衣服！

不瘦下来不准再做头发！

你就一直做一个穿过气衣服的土的掉渣的死胖子吧！

5。控制不住嘴巴的人就别闹腾着减肥！这不是纯恶心人吗！

活该！死胖子！活该你这种人就只能对着那些XS的美衣流泪！

夏天要到了！你那象腿就别自讨没趣地穿裙子了！

你就不怕有人在背后悄悄惊叹你的勇气么！

我比你瘦！比你努力！你活该这么丑！

6。有男朋友的胖子！***再张肥你男朋友就不要你了！

你当他说你胖胖的很可爱！说你体型刚好是真的啊！你是没张脑子还是咋的！

你男朋友要170CM200J你看着可爱不！！！

没男朋友的胖子！***为什么没男朋友知道吗！你张这样谁要你啊！

现在外貌协会的男人遍地都是！你看看大腿上的肥肉！小腿上的肌肉！

你是青蛙还是癞蛤蟆啊！！！你看看你那肥死人的胳膊！你怎么不去当相扑啊你！

刚被男朋友甩的胖子！哇哈哈哈哈哈！你终于被甩了啊！

你男朋友是只吃只拉的造粪机你也想甩了他是吧！！！还在痛苦里暴食？！

那你就等着下个男人也甩了你吧！！！

7。吃？你有资格吃么？有脸吃么？不觉得自己恶心么？还想不想要脸乐？

还想不想让内些看扁你的人大吃一惊？

8。美，瘦了一点有什么用啊，才不要听别人虚情假意的说，你好像瘦了一点。

瘦一点有什么用，听就要听别人说，哇啊！你好美哦！！！ 那样才是美得冒泡。。。。

9。那些想减肥又没有意志力喜欢吃东西的人***没救

想减肥就别他妈给自己找借口 少墨迹 果断点会死？

要瘦就得付出代价 受不了就继续在胖子行列混

反正世界上胖子这么多 也不差你

10。爱吃的女人！！！！！

多爱吃吖，少吃一口，能怎样，能死么？

多没吃过东西吖，

从小到大，亏着你了么？

怎么就那么不要脸，吃吃吃，

看看自己的肥脸，你有什么资格吃！！！！ 死肥婆！！！

11。一个人连自己食欲都控制不住，还跟牲口有什么区别？

12。要么瘦！要么死！

13。照相不敢咧嘴笑是吧！裤子不敢穿浅色的是吧！这就是胖子最大的悲哀！！

你知道那些瘦子为什么比你瘦吗！因为在努力劝你吃点东西照顾身体的时候，

她自己却找借口尽量不吃！！！就算吃了也是素，而且象征性地一点！！！

没办法！人家瘦子！胃小！！！再不克制就一辈子羡慕别人吧！！！

14。饭量再控制，少吃一口，能怎样，能死么？

她们吃是有资本，你个死胖子，当你没瘦下来时，只有忍饿的份，你不对自己狠，别人就对你狠！

15。当你对美好身材的渴望远远大于你对食物的渴望，你就可以成功减肥。

减不下来那是因为你对美丽的渴望还不够强烈。

16。一个女人如果连自己的体重都控制不了，何以掌控自己的人生！

17。.其实在你想放弃的那个瞬间，告诉自己再坚持一下再坚持一下，也就过去了。

A full stop to Brunei~

I attended the meeting to meet up v Mr Beh from Brunei...is at Hotel Federal, KL. i went there with CKS. The meeting was fast yet simple...He introduced me about the school and stuffs that we need to know and passed me the agreement... at that time, there was a pause in my mind when i read the statement...he appointed me as primary teacher and the basic salary and education allowance is only B$1750. is little. No doubt. i know things will come to me as soon s possible when this letter reach my parents eyes...

there are some of the conditions such as i should pay the school upon demand in writing the following costs and expenses.

i) all costs incurred by the school in my recruitment

ii) any costs and expenses reasonably incidental to the costs of your recruitment and

iii) all costs and expenses which the schoo; has incurred and shall incured in finding an urgent replacement for you.

after tat, we went sunway for a movie and a expensive lunch...

it is nice.. n i love rupenzel..

do i look like rupenzel?

OF cpurse not..

i dont have a loong hair and i m not as pretty as her...

Nite i went for party at my cousin house..

OMG... everyone ask me not to go..

wat the earth is that? everyone is asking me not to go..

they already help me to make the decision... wat to do....

simple spending money

People always say it is always easy to use money than to earn money..
i pretty agree with that..
i wake up this morning v a tired and lumpy face. Then i teach tuition. Then thinking of going maxis to change my phone to pre-paid. SO i won call so much and at the same time can control myself to call him...
it charge me 25 dollars to do that.. then top up my phone and my mom's phone... each 30.. mean i have spent 85 dollars. SInce i am so free, i went to my friend's shop to see some clothes. i bought 2 shirt... one for me, one for mama.. it costs me 46dollars. total i have used 131 dollars.
Before entering my aunty house, mom say need to buy something.. then i thought of buying some junkfood..
i go to a mart and simply buy some junkfood and ice-cream. It cost me 25. SO total today i spent 156 dollars. haha... SO easy to spent away all my hard earn money... wahahha
tat y my aunty always say...
Hui, must get a rich guy.. He is the one who can fullfill ur desire. desire of buying and spending..
A pauper will only make u suffer and pity..
AHHHH~~~

the day we meet

Ｉ have travel so far jus to meet up v him. GOsh..
WHen i reach there, he is stil so slim and smart.
But i hate his hair.. is too long. since he is no longer my boy, i shouldnt complain much too.
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That the time my tears pouring down. i canot do anything to control it.. indeed, i am so jealous and sad. i feel like some1 is gonna forever missing in my life..
no one will ever called me baby anymore, no one will make decision for me anymore........
i am restless... to be brave, i wipe off my tears and pretend nothing happened..
Things seem to move fast..
i hug him from his back. He ask me: since u are so in love v me, why should we break up?
i keep silence... i wanna tell him... i love him... my devil keep pressing my heart to hide from him... SOme kids come to us and move our sight.. we change topic and move to the crab they are looking for..
Then, we stated with the topic again..
How was things runnig in life. so on and so forth.
'what size are u wearing?' This is some questions that he won ask me for so many years. i told him about it.. Then onli i knwo y.. cause the girl had talk about this v her. i am again jealous..
i can see tender from his eyes.. he is still so charming and pleasant...
i follow him to his friend's house......... then back to Tesco.. it was so cold inside and i am shivering. He hug me at last ..to keep me warm..
i know he will be my man ..
YEs, he is my man..
the one who can give me comfort and warm me..
heart beat rapidly incease to 100 pulse a min...
then back to his house..
A stay in his house..
he was so gentle that nite.. thought we didnt do anything, but i knw the hug that he give was the best ever in my 24 years old life.. i will never forget the hug... n the kiss....

The next morning, i had a breakfast that full of love.. chesse spagetti with meatball. no doubt, i love it. then we move to his new house. HE kiss me again and i can feel lots of love.. i know he love me.. n i know i love him too..
THE HUG N THE KISS.. i know i will never forget..
i tell him everything between me n ken.
i know he is so piss off. cause he thinks that he has been cheated. Its not easy to b the main character to the third party.. i m so sorry... we give each other 2 years to settle our life... 2 years... is long yet short.. what will happen in this 2 years time?
bunch of girls surrounding him..
anything will happen... SOmemore there is a girl who in love v him...
cute and pretty...
what should i do?
but i really enjoy the day...... although is sad to say good bye to his...
he give me a warm goodbye kiss and a hug for the segregate. i cried..........
tat the end of the day......
baby.. i love u... i wanna be with u...